Knowing my sons, though… they’re going to be the only two people who don’t at some point get their own names confused with each other’s. Their names are both five letters long and begin with “Ja”, so I’ve heard my own fair share of people who are familiar with both of them calling them by the wrong name.
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At the advice of one of my good friends, I’m thinking about re-evaluating my
dating strategies should I find myself single in the foreseeable future.
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In other news, I’m wondering when these “positive steps” alluded to in
previous posts are actually going to be taken. So far, I haven’t seen that many
of them short of the fact that my presence at my boyfriend’s church functions is
no longer requested of me. However, I know that his aunt continues to read both
of my blogs almost daily because of the Australia hits that come up on each of
their Feedjits at varying times — that, and I can verify that it’s her visiting
them because Google Analytics tells me that each of those suspect hits
originates from Brisbane. Occasionally, I’ll see hits from who I’m pretty sure
are Matt’s mother as well, but those are for the most part far and few
between.
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I mean, I would have had more respect for their religion and been more open
to the idea of embracing it if my father’s family’s Mormon beliefs didn’t get
trampled on in the process and I didn’t feel as if I had to convert.
The easiest way to make me despise, loathe, even hate something is to shove it
down my throat to the point where I feel as if I have no other choice in the
matter, because then I’m going to take the choice of distancing myself as far
away from it as I can. Life is all about making choices, and I still retain my
own.
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And for someone who said that “the path to God isn’t always straight and
narrow”, it almost feels like several members of Matt’s family are on a crusade
to do whatever it takes to make that path straight and narrow. I’m not
sure how attempting to explain this to them will go, though. Should I even try?
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In other news, I’m also thinking of getting myself baptized Lutheran or
Methodist if it would make everyone… stop talking about the importance of it. I
would be Christian, so they’d be happy. Right? We’re not even going to get into
Mormon for now, but if the simple act of baptism makes people feel better about
my chances of getting into Heaven, it would be something I’d consider.
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Besides, even if I did decide to get baptized, it would probably be under the
Mormon faith. Having given that some thought, most of my father’s family aligns
themselves with that faith — there’s really no reason why I should get baptized
under another religion, especially if it could just turn into a tug of war.
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I wouldn’t be doing it to strengthen my relationship with any God; I would be
doing it to pacify others so they wouldn’t lecture me about it.
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In my spare time, I’ve also been reading about baptism — not only does it fit
the general theme of things since I am taking History of Religions, but my
boyfriend’s family happens to be extremely devout. As I continue to read about
it, I only solidify my current beliefs that I am not where I should be in my
life if I were to voluntarily travel down the road that would lead up to me
getting baptized.
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If things can actually go back to the way they were in my relationship with
my boyfriend before it became increasingly more important Who Was Baptized and
What Religion They Identified With, I will consider my prayer to God
answered.
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The other was probably several nights ago, when I prayed that things could go
back to the way they were before religion entered my relationship with Matt — it
divided us, or at least I would like to think so, because the definition of what
religion we were became more important than simply believing.
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I’ve actually prayed twice in my life.
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At any rate, I think I’m going to give it until next Thursday before I
actually begin to compose it here on this computer. That will all depend on how
things go and whether the issues that surrounding James’ upbringing are
resolved.
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So long as I don’t actually mention anything about it or religion in this
house, I think I’m going to continue to keep in line with what is probably my
father’s only actual rule here. Although I am free to believe as I please, or
even in the absence thereof, religious discussion (or “bringing [religion] into
the house”, as it’s been called on prior occasions) is fairly taboo here. Well,
talking about it where my dad can hear it or not discussing it or practicing it
in private are…
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Some things I’m thinking about getting.
Sep 26, 2010
Author: Dani | Filed under: filibuster
When my children start school, I’m thinking about getting each of them a personalized kids backpack. However, I would probably stick to buying ones that wouldn’t emblazon their names across the back of it because of the day and age that we live in today — although I would already have taught my children to be wary of most strangers, it’s just another precaution that I want to take. Even though I would write their names on their school supplies just as my own mother did with mine, I wouldn’t put their names on anything that would give someone like that easy access to them. Maybe if we lived in a smaller city that had a really low crime rate, I would consider it… because let’s face it, some of the backpacks that have room for their names on it are nice.
Knowing my sons, though… they’re going to be the only two people who don’t at some point get their own names confused with each other’s. Their names are both five letters long and begin with “Ja”, so I’ve heard my own fair share of people who are familiar with both of them calling them by the wrong name.
I’m also thinking about getting them each a personalized duffle bag as well. I’d like to see them get into something like the Boy Scouts or Little League when they get older, so having their own duffle bag would make everything more convenient. As a child, I never really had the chance to get into sports due to my asthma — although I tried out for my high school’s soccer team as a freshman and would have made junior varsity if I had been able to stick with it, the frequent asthma attacks that I was having then held me back from that.
(And if you’re looking for Dallas lawn maintenance, I know where you can go.)
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What else am I to think, considering that the last time he saw James was
September 7th? I would have understood if he had reached out to me letting me
know that he might not be able to see his son as much if school or work had
gotten in the way, but the only real communications that I’ve had with him are…
sparse.
I can only see this hurting James in the long run, to be quite honest. I’ve
gotten past the point where I’m willing to cow down to make people happy,
although I would lie if I said that I was shocked by how things have gotten.
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He understood that sometimes I needed to have a place to vent. Then it
changed.
This all began to happen right around the time that she found my blogs, might
I add. Not that I’m ashamed of anything that I’ve written in them, as I stand
behind my word — I always have. However, about a week after that happened, Matt
has apparently wanted almost nothing to do with his son
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Through the use of Feedjit and Google Analytics, I’ve been able to see when
Matt’s mother or one of his aunts visit my blogs. However, that hasn’t really
happened for going on two weeks now… but I’m not going to sit here and assume
that I’m “out of the woods”, so to speak.
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I’ve come to see that most religions criticize those who use birth control
because they feel that it is an abortifacent that “kills babies”, and I’m not
even going to dignify that with any sort of response aside from the obvious fact
that birth control does no such thing —
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Are you in need of health insurance?
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